Poem 167
John Lennon’s been shot dead – I can remember thinking no, people get shot but not shot dead (eg. a few months later Ronald Reagan and the Pope were also shot – both old men, both recovered) …
… I was at a friend’s house and someone rang up with the news … it was late afternoon here, still only a few hours after it happened … it hit me hard in ways that I didn’t necessarily understand … we were supposed to go out that evening but I stayed home by myself and wrote not one but two poems … the difference between the responses is interesting, the second despite its brittle armour actually more anguished than the first …
… I sent both poems to The Listener the next day with some crazy idea that they could stop the presses and print them the following week, poetry as immediate commentary … I can just imagine what they thought and said on opening the envelope … but as naive as the impulse was (I’d just turned twenty) actually the poems are better than that …
December 9th 1980
(i) Last night the wife said oh boy when you're dead you don't take nothing with you but your soul - think! They're playing your songs on the radio but I listen with half a mind I'm thinking about some words you wrote in another place and time I'm thinking it's easy to kill John Lennon but it's harder to end his song and though you missed your beat on a New York street the world still sings along I think you didn't come from Liverpool by this long and unlikely path just to die in New York city where the killers collect autographs so it was easy to kill John Lennon but it's going to take more than a gun to stop his song from spreading or destroy the things he's done and though you said your soul was all you take from here I can feel there's something missing that I never knew was there it took your killer to show me how much it meant believing somewhere in this world John Lennon was still breathing (ii) a few hours ago it was personal now it's just news again a freak with a gun collected your autograph and put a couple of bullets through you who wants to try and figure his head? I just know if I want someone alive there's someone else to want them dead DOA you step out of it and we carry on as best we can some of your old friends might be getting out of their cars slower hiring an extra man or hiding beneath their beds I just know I wanted you alive and the paper said Ex-Beatle Shot Dead