Poem 253
A pakeha pepeha written for White Cloud my collaboration with Tim Finn that pivoted on the experience of being a white New Zealander …
… as talked about in the show, looking into the derivation of the word pakeha I found that it’s a mystery, no one knows … but it might come from Paakehakeha gods of the ocean who had the forms of fish and man – or from pakepakeha mythical mischievous creatures with fair skin and hair who came from the sea …
… the intention of the poem was to locate myself (and any pakeha) in time and space, tell the story which brings us to the present day, to celebrate the restless energy, creativity and resilience of our forebears and via our DNA ourselves so that we can proclaim our own story and stand at the head of a long line of ancestors (good and bad) pressing up close behind us … it was created in response to quotes like this (also included in the show) – ‘pakeha are the people who define themselves by what they are not, who want to forget their origins, their history, their cultural inheritance in order to start afresh’ …
… this was written in 2010 in the Katherine Mansfield room in Menton which is only a short stroll from the Balzi Rossi cliffs where the remains of the earliest Europeans (Grimaldi Man) were discovered … it was also round the time archaeologists found evidence in Cheddar Gorge that the first Britons were cannibals …
… nicely succinct and elegant in the way it smoothly transitions from stone age through iron and bronze ages to history of the last two thousand years, the stirring tone adroitly mixes in more modern idiom ( my father went bust, true that) and comic touches (false teeth, I married them) to avoid things becoming too portentous … it’s a difficult balance to strike particularly when writing about your race but the whole point was to create something celebratory and rousing (for once) which I managed well I think … when it was performed at BATS in 2012 this was spoken by two actors male and female to make clear the story belongs to both genders …
( I like sewers/sawed/sowed, the bottommost bend of the globe and the white drowned Māui echoing Poem 10 and Poem 156 from decades before … )
My Shadow
Out of Africa I came the rift valley where I first rose to my feet to watch the sun open the land and walked my shadow thrown ahead already my instinct was to leave I picked up my life shattered sharp-edged stones and crossed to Europe I walked a wooded valley to Britain watched the sea rise behind me I carried things of iron of bronze sunk my teeth deep in the land left bones orbits occipital skull caps I drank from the stones I raised remain and when invaders came I married them raised a roundhouse a thatch a castle a flag built boats factories sewers painted hammered sawed and sowed as times hardened the seaways opened my father went bust there was hunger or war restlessness I took ship let London sink behind me and came through heat through cold to the bottommost bend of the globe I came on the wind I carried fire and steam false teeth disease and the cure of the disease pakepakeha they call me half fish half man true that a white drowned Māui whose hook also lifts up the land I must be doing raising roof beams raising children my shadow goes out ahead clouds chasing clouds over the hills as the first of the world’s light opens this land see it before you carry it in the pale palm of your hand